1. I'm sad how people have chosen to change themselves; that they chose fame instead of friendship. They chose sentiment instead of love. They chose friendship instead of love. They left the ones who have been through with them for so long. They decided to never think of the ones who were there when they need them the most. It's sad how these people still exist, still alive, still breathe the same air as I am.
2. I'm sad how people have chosen to leave me; yes they might say they don't, they might say I'm the one who changed, they might say I'm drifting apart from them. They have not seen the efforts I have put in. I'm staying away from everyone to let them know I'm not good enough for them. I'm not good enough to be like them. I'm not good enough to be appreciated. And that, makes me feel so sick and disappointed with everyone surrounding me. I just don't want to move on.
3. I'm sad how people have chosen to put all the blames on me; I had to sacrifice, I had to fake smile, I had to pretend that I fine with everyone's attitude, I had to pretend I'm happy with all the bullshits everyone has put on me, I had to pretend I'm happy. I had to choose to be cold-hearted because I don't want to be hurt anymore. I had to pretend I don't care because I locked my heart away from getting hurt and accepting the reality because honestly, my fantasy is much far better than what I'm expecting in reality. I don't expect people would leave me as much as they do now.
4. I'm sad how I'm a loner now; I'm sad how people don't get me, don't understand the real me and that they chose to judge me. The worse part of being hated on is that no one stood up for you. Not your best friend, not your boyfriend and not even yourself. I'm just living in that state where I let go everything. I let everyone put blames on me. I let myself drown in disappointment. I let my happiness be taken away by others. I let go my heart.
5. Worst part of my life is no one gives a fucking damn
